Unbelievable that we are here!
my man and I are in a place
irritating and all too familiar.
I just discovered
our schedules are not in sync.
“We talked about this,” he said,
“yes, but I couldn’t look at my calendar
in that moment and then forgot.”
And now we are double booked.
He confirmed the trip, flights were reserved,
assuming I was all in.
That’s what he heard in the rush of the moment
while I was distracted by other things.
My “that sounds fine”
was generic, without context
or view of the whole.
I agreed with only partial knowledge.
I’m having to adapt…again.
Changes can’t be made.
Lord you know this has been a repeated conflict of ours
at least twenty-five years or more.
Kids sports, schools, tutors, orthodontists,
church, career, committees …
our lives mini tornados,
Planning for days at home
for respite and margin,
must be defended
but oh how discouraged I become
when those hopes are dashed
by calendar conflicts.
Jesus you didn’t have a day planner
or desk with to-do lists,
but plenty of others had agendas for Your life;
like my kids, You too had multitudes who pulled,
begged and cried for Your attention.
And You came to us with a predetermined agenda for Your life,
a plan from before time began,
fully designed, notated, scheduled;
without reminders on your watch,
no to-do list on your phone.
You were always at the right place at the right time.
You never overbooked either,
only did “things that are pleasing to Him.”*
Your brothers, mother, disciples
even Your arch enemy couldn’t divert You
from Your supreme goal.
How unlike me.
Our calendar conflict is
not too much for you to resolve.
A reminder for me to pay attention, listen more.
Oh Lord of all
help me be like Jesus,
always listening to His Father,
never multitasking like me.
Help me slow my pace,
listen for Your voice, Your nudge, Your peace,
Your affirmation; “this is the way, walk in it.”
I want to be like You, Jesus.
“I am near good when I am near You,
to be like You is a glorious thing.”*
May it be ever so,
 John 8:29, ESV
 Isaiah 30:21, ESV
 Bennett, Arthur. Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers.(Banner of Truth, 1975), p.10.